Thank you for writing me with your concerns about developing a relationship with God. I am happy that you are a new Christian and are confessing Jesus Christ as your Lord and Saviour. When you have done so the Holy Spirit comes to live in you. He is your comforter, helper and teacher and so much more. If you don’t have one, you should invest in a bible. You mentioned that you have difficulty finding a church. If you know someone who attends a church where there is sound biblical teaching, you should visit with them. Not just a Sunday service, but visit the bible study sessions. This is where you will learn about the character and nature of the trinity — God, Jesus Christ, and Holy Spirit. Scriptures will be explained to help you get a better understanding of how to apply the word of God to your daily life.
Learning and knowing the scriptures are a key to understanding that no matter what is going on in your life, God truly cares about you. He has an answer for everything, a solution for every problem, a blessing for every area of your life. Most of the time, our discouragement, hopelessness, sadness, loneliness is because we dwell too much on the unpleasantries of our past, and even present circumstances. This stifles our future. But God wants us to know and embrace right thinking. The scriptures says that we will have whatsoever we say. So we draw to ourselves or attract what we think and say about ourselves and our situations. I also suggest that you attend an intercessory prayer group that prays the word of God. Here you will learn how to pray and experience the presence of the Holy Spirit. He is that still small voice in your spirit who helps you make decisions, and gives you understanding about things when you ask.
If you want to learn how and what to pray, I include a link to my website that has prayer books to help you. All prayers are scripture-based and I provide a list of the scriptures that I used to create each prayer. Hopefully, they will give you a jump-start on having a prayer life that affirms the truth about what you might be experiencing. My inspirational book contains a few short stories where I share about some of my personal struggles. My past was a lot like yours, but now I have exceeding joy and freedom in my life.
For now I hope this helps you. Please feel free to contact me if you have any other questions. I am not a bible scholar, but I share my Christian experience as best I can. It is because I want others to know about and trust the God I serve. He has helped me, healed me so many times, and blessed me, my children and grandchildren so much that I can never deny Him.
On the “Free Gifts” page of the website, are PDF versions of some of my other books. You can download (no strings attached). I just like to share to hopefully encourage others to trust and love God even more than I do. Bless you child of God and have a wonderful day. Don’t forget you have the Best Friend of all — the Holy Spirit of our God, Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. You will come to know Him as long as you desire to.
In His Love and Service, Christine